With a seeming difference between the music and lyrics, “Roger Patterson Van” memorializes a musician who passed on.
Track: “Roger Patterson Van”
Album: Black Pear Tree EP (2008)
Roger Patterson was the bassist for a band called Atheist. He died in car accident right as the band was picking up steam, it seems, though I’ll confess I’m not very familiar with Atheist. I’ve tried to piece together what happened from the fan pages and the memorials, but the most helpful pieces are not in the style of police reports but the videos of Patterson playing. I encourage you to dig around yourself. His death is a tragedy, but there’s joy in trying to learn about these figures that John Darnielle is interested in. So much of his art, especially lately, has been about elevating figures that his audience might not know about. I may be representing my own experience, but metal and goth music are not my usual fare.
The tune was one Kaki King was playing as an instrumental that John Darnielle added lyrics to as a memorial for Roger Patterson. There are a lot of memorials in the catalog, but this one is downright jaunty. The construction explains why this sounds like it does, but really, does a memorial need to sound sad? “Nothing left inside now // nothing left to do // empty out the empties // half this stuff belongs to you” is a really incredible description of the physical steps left over after the emotional ones, so even though it’s in the middle of a bouncy, elaborate song, does that change how you take it? I’ve always been fond of this one, even with no connection to the subject. It’s a valuable lesson in the ways we think of grief and the many forms it can take.